In the beginning, we say, God
spoke the world into being.
It’s Friday, and Jesus is
still speaking. The great earthly
ministry which began in Cana of Galilee is ending on the hill of Calvary. But still, he speaks.
“I thirst,” “Father, forgive
them,” “here is your mother,” “here is your son,” “my God, my God.” The different accounts of the crucifixion
record different words, but the same message: the teacher still teaches.
What the teacher teaches,
exactly, confounds and confuses us. In
the face of a completely avoidable and – by all practical considerations – unnecessary torture and execution, Jesus
instead insists on doing the very things that will get him killed.
Jesus’ actions are so….so…foreign, so mind-boggling, that nobody
understands them. The disciples don’t;
his mother does not; the ruler of his country does not; certainly, two thousand
years after the fact, we don’t.
We know this, because our
words don’t change: “for the love of God, save yourself!” “why are you doing
this?” “you’re doing this the hardest way possible” “why are you trying to be a
martyr?”
When we see others apparently
hell-bent on self-destruction, after a certain point we release our own
consciences, choosing instead to stand aloof, part of the “I-told-you-so” crowd.
When Jesus has cried out, “my
God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” we take it to mean that God has left
him, hurt, bleeding, and dying: punishment for our guilt. We take it to mean, in fact, that God acts
the same way that we would.
After all, that the great
stern Father that so many people grew up with: you were so bad, so sinful, that you made God so angry that he had
to kill someone to make himself feel better.
Jesus stepped in, and died instead of you. We know that somebody has to take the blame when something goes wrong.
Feeling powerless to stop a
tragedy without involving ourselves, we stand alongside the assembled throng
and watch, stunned, as the hope and promise of our own lives is crucified on a
barren hill outside Jerusalem . We are stunned as we realize that only hours
ago we stood in the courtyard and called for his death, desperately afraid that
at any moment we would be unmasked as his followers. We are breathless at the scope of our own
denial of Christ – the realization that our trust has rested not upon God, but
upon the power that sought and aspired to in our world. We are aghast that we have expected and even demanded to see God act like us.
We are shamed to find that,
in fact, our “belief in the bible” is false, and empty. Jesus acts and speaks to fulfill the
Scriptures, and we find that we don’t just fall short; we deny entirely that we
even know how to act. W lack the courage
to act as God demands, and would rather blindly ignore the Saviour in our
midst, rather than follow: if we truly did ‘believe’ in the bible, our days
would be spent in prayer, washing each others’ feet, and sharing in God’s meal
– not messing about in politics, finger-pointing, or judgement.
But what if, in fact, it is
not God who demands the death of Christ, but us? What if, for once, we
cannot stand safely behind the mask we project that says God is angry and
vengeful; and have instead to rend our own hearts and accept that Christ didn’t
die because God wanted it; but
because we did.
Maybe, when Jesus prayed in
the garden of Gethsemane that the cup would pass from him, he did not mean that
God would relent in demanding his death; but instead that he would not have to
submit to the violence, insults, torture, and death that waited for him at the
hands of the people who had before so readily listened to him.
God does not act like we
do. God used the cross that Friday – not
to show that someone had to die – but that that death itself was damned on that
Friday.
It is Friday, but Sunday is
coming: that scripture, too, will be fulfilled; and we will see of God’s great
covenant become our reality.
Jesus continues to teach, even
as he hangs on the cross: speaking to us, admonishing, loving us to end;
remembering indeed the 22nd psalm: “my God, my God, why have you
forsaken me?” but ends with “the Lord has acted!”
The Lord has acted: the Lord
has hung on the cross, and breathed his last.
Because the Lord has acted,
your life is not futile: as the cross has fulfilled its purpose, you will, too.
Because the Lord has acted,
your failures are not final: you are loved, and you are forgiven.
Because the Lord has acted,
your death is not final: on Friday, God damned death, for you.
The Lord has acted: blessed
be the name of the Lord.
Amen.
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